Had the urge to talk to him yesterday but didnt had the courage to. Hahaha my bestie told me to have some balls and talk to him but no. Haha I shall admit that I've got no balls. So I didnt talk to him in the end la BUT END UP IT WAS SO TORTUROUS FOR ME. Its like a burden in my heart sia I can't let it go. It's just hanging there like a big heavy stone. I keep on thinking about him. About what might happen if we started chatting. Perhaps nothing.

Tweeted about loving someone I shouldnt love today. I seriously think I deserve all the torture and pain I feel every single day because I always fall for someone that I dont deserve. I'm just simply not good enough.

I need someone to hit some senses out of me man. And tell me that nothing is gonna happen I should stop hoping and dreaming. With higher expectations comes big disappointments. I just cant afford to see my hopes fall again, I will break down. Every single day I wake up with such great disappoitments because of all the good dreams I have about us, the possibilities. But my heart breaks a little everytime when reality hits on me real hard.

I can't do this anymore. I have to move on! Hahaha such a emotional post lol shall go to sleep now and stop thinking so much. Over thinking really got me all depressed. Bye.

Fallen too hard again..

Hello whoever that reads this! Sooooo, as seen from the title of this blogpost, there's no doubt that I'm gonna talk abt bgr today lol. So, I'm just gonna talk about what I feel lately. So, few days back, when we were otw to our lecture room, we just coincidentally saw my crush in poly or rather eye candy. I used to be abit crazy about him during the orientation camp. But I think with all my busy schedules, It kind of distracted me. But I swear my heart still beats like crazy whenever I see him. Then somehow, something was triggered when I saw him few days back. It's like sudden burst of feelings lol. And if people around keeps on talking about it, I will fall even deeper. Dont you share the same thoughts with me? Yeap, so thats what's happening to me. My friends keep on mentioning him, reminding me about him . And I can feel myself falling deeper. Sometimes I know its impossible, but my heart just cant help but to think about all the possibilities and try to find for tht one last hope. This may sound exaggerating but I even dreamt about him hahaha I guess I'm just too lonely and desperate. I admit tht ok.

So ya, thats what happened these few days la. And then on thurs which was kind of my last day of school before study week starts then I was kind of secretly hoping I can see him one more time before hols. And out of my expectation, I saw him again. My friend would have say that its fate but I dont have the courage to say tht though I hope it is haha but I know its pure coincidence. Its good to have dreams sometimes isnt it? Talking about fallen deeply, it was valentines yesterday and I bet singles will think about someone they have a crush on. So, I felt more sad and empty cause I miss him more than ever and wish to talk to him but I can't.  I just dont have the courage.

But ya, valentines really got me all depressed. Seeing girls with roses and balloons outside is like rubbing salt on my wound. Hahaha I'm not saying that its not good to be single ok. There's pros and cons for either. But I'm just the type who needs someone there for me to rely on. Saying the obvious would meant that I just need someone to love me. Haha thats what my bestie told me that day when I whatsapp her I want a boyf. Dont judge ok haha I think that its absolutely normal to feel lonely.

To end my random update today, I hope whoever reads this will not judge me ok haha okay its your call whether to judge or not. Whatever. But just dont tell anyone about it okay. I posted here thinking that no one will read it cause i have no idea who else I can talk to.

bye and happy belated valentines? Haha I wish that my valentines next year will be different!

Screwed.

Super pissed off now. I really cannot stand my mum nagging and whining everytime I go out. I mean like fuck la I work like almost everyday and have no time to go out with my friends and today i am not even going out to play i just wanna go library and study. and early in the morning you started whining and nagging ABOUT ME GOING OUT EVERYDAY? THINK ABOUT IT MAN WHEN DID I EVER GO OUT EVERYDAY??!! i only went out once to celebrate poh's bday and once to celebrate mine IS THAT TOO MUCH??? TWO TIMES ONLY DUDE. HOW LONG HAVE I WORK I SERIOUSLY THINK I DESERVE THIS FREEDOM OKAY don't tell me i don't, i work for the sake of freedom and what do i get now? NOTHING BUT NAGGING AND SCOLDINGS. To think about how excited i was yesterday cause i am going to watch movie today after so damn long i don't even rmb when is the last time i watched a movie. Probably before i started work which is like six months ago and this is what i get? I don't get money to spend i don't get to go out cause you kept on nagging about it which seriously spoils my mood. Forever ruining my good day. i really cannot take it. ONCE IN A WHILE ONLY AND THIS IS WHAT I GET. A dinner date with my girls to celebrate my bday also cnt CAUSE I GOT NO MONEY. THEN WHATS THE POINT OF GOING OUT.

i'm tired now, don't wanna say anymore since i am repeating the same thing over and over again.

Regrets.

Just got to know about RSS modern dance getting distinction for SYF! Feel so proud of my girls! I swear I cried cause I was just so happy for them that their hardwork had paid off! But at the same time, memories just begin to flash back in my head and remind me of my one and only SYF two years back. I only wish for time to go back to when I was sec one... Back then I did not work hard..but I tried my best during my sec two and three. And that was when I truly regret that I did not work hard during first year..

However, we cant change the fact that we didn't perform as what people expect us to, but we are not guilty of it cause I believe we have tried our best. And that everyone else recognize our efforts. It's just that the results didn't reflect it and that was probably why we were so devastated back then.

If only there's a second chance...

But too bad! We are not given second chance in everything, BUT WHAT CAN WE DO??? Yeah, just suck it up and move on yo.

Okay, Short update for today! Feeling tired from all the crying and work, have to wake up early for work tmrw also so that's all. Thanks for reading, whoever you are, I really appreciate it, goodnight and sweet dreams. (:

New life!

Hello all! (:
As you can see, the topic for today's update is about new life! To think about my poly life starting in few more days, I just feel so nervous, scared, insecure, excited! So many different feelings la! Anyway, i'm glad that I was able to make good friends over there with my classmates, I was quite worried about me being a loner throughout my poly life la but then it was pretty impossible because I can never stop talking for one second. LOLOL Whatever it is, i'm just looking forward to school starting! ^^

And that's all about the new life part HAHAHAHA tio cheat LOLOL

TBH, I have nothing much to post today but I have got nothing to do now so here I am updating my blog, typing nonsense.. kekeke Since I have nothing else to say I shall go continue watch my show now! [ Watching When love walked in currently, starring Victoria f(x) and that's the reason why I watch it in the first place LOLOL ]

Lastly, as promised, I'm gonna upload the pictures from my camp! (:

 k, thanks for reading ^^ bye! (:

SHORT update : Orientation @ NYP

Reallyreally short update! Hahaha Had a great time at the freshman orientation today and yesterday at NYP! Time now is 11:41 which means I should be sound asleep by now since I have to work tmr but I just feel the urge to blog LOLOL I don't know why also don't ask me why hahaha! Anyway, yesterday was the first day of the camp, as usual la most orientation we have gone would be like superrrr awkward at first la cause all strangers mah then need adapt first. So it wasn't that fun the early part of the day when we all just met. ESPECIALLY the ice breakers, although it works pretty well all the time but it's really extremely awkward...and paiseh max! Hahaha! It's like we don't even know each other well and we're playing games, but whatever it is, that's just why it is called ice breakers isn't it ??? LOLOL Back to the topic, we created our own cheers and had campus tour which is super tiring cause the school is just that big la -.- and then we learn the mass dance which I myself had a lot of fun cause dancing is my thing ^^ Hahaha and I love how the OGLs are so hyper which makes me very high LOL and we also met our mentor, Ms Gladys, and she's a very niceee person (:

OHHH, and we had buffet for lunch HAHA Lastly, we had to perform our cheers at the end of the day la and it was so paiseh LOL but it's fun to watch others performing LOLOLOL then we got our NYP FMO'13 t-shirt hahaha it's awesome la but it's made of cotton... >.<

Next day right, I was so glad that my class is so responsive la. it's like when the OGLs ask a question or when we do cheers throughout the camp, my class was considered loud alrd hahaha! The first day was so horrible la cause everyone paiseh. hahaha! And that's when I really begin to enjoy the camp! Hahaha afterall, that's what camp is about right? All the cheers and race and fun and shouting~~! So time seriously passed super fast for the second day cause I really had a lot of fun! We did the amazing race and a lot more la hahaha! Took some pictures but I think I'll upload it another time okay? I promise! ^^

Last thing, one of my OGL is SOOOO CUTE! :P
P/s : And shuai ^.<

Okay, that's all. I don't think this is a short update LOLOL whatever la, I got work tmr so i'm gonna sleep now goodnight! (:

Cutting my hair!

Sup! Feeling rather sad now LOL Was so eager to cut my hair just now so i went to vista point to cut my hair around 7 plus LOL Cut my fringe and went back to bangs hahaha as expected huh ? And cut my hair cause it's just so long and the weather nowadays is just so hot. On top of that, my hair is so heavy! So i decided to cut my hair and i finally got to cut it today after so long! Everytime i want to go out and cut my hair it starts to rain. Oh well, as usual it rained today also but i was determined to cut my hair! AND THE RESULTS ARE, later i'll take a photo.. Not happy with it but at least my head feels light now and i'm not pissed with my long heavy hair anymore! But i realised my hair is getting curly DAMNIT T.T I dont want curly hair >.< although i'm thinking about getting perm, but still it's different ._.

Whatever it is, i've alrd cut my hair i cant possibly stick it back so i shall suck it up and move on. BUT I CANT IT'S JUST SO SHORT. hahaha okay i can do this. it will grow back afterall, it will ONLY take one or two years or more time to grow back to that length *sobs* After looking at the photo, people might think that it's not that short afterall and why am i making a big fuss over this. But here's the thing, MY HAIR IS FREAKING LONG BEFORE I CUT IT SO I ABSOLUTELY HAVE THE RIGHT TO MAKE A FUSS ABOUT IT. LOL okay i'm exaggerating.. hahaha! Forgive me please, just let me vent my sadness in one post and i'll stop. :'( Please tolerate for awhile okay haha

Anyway, here's the picture.

 

k, thanks for reading bye! (:

 

RAIN

Thinking about changing my blogskin, should I ? But the blogger format seems to be different from the past, I doubt I know how to use now LOL changing blogskin is so troublesome also! Big project for me hahaha maybe will change it later once I see a blogskin I like, provided that I know how to change kekeke~

Anyway, woke up at 1pm today -.-
Rarely I wake up so late de, but because I drank coffee yesterday midnight I couldn't fall asleep until 5 in the morning hahaha luckily I never work today if not, gg.. LOL Planned to cut my hair today but somehow, I end up rotting at home again cause it rained again. I realized whenever I have plans on my off days it always rain.. coincidence? I doubt so.. Soooooo, I stayed home all day long and had curry and bread for brunch! Mommy's curry is the best in the world! Number 1!

Listening to Demi lovato's heart attack now! Quite addictive haha but the pitch super high! hahaha super hard to sing! anyway, mommy yesterday say she's gonna get me a new bed! YAYYYYY queen size maybe? LOL whatever it is, having new bed makes me excited LOL

Okay! Shall go find some blogskins! Hope I can finish everything by today bye! (:

Update (:

HELLO! So long since I last update my blog! hahaha! Soooooo, few things to say~ Firstly, I finally have got more time to rest and play haha cause I've converted to part time this month cause school gonna start soon! Looking forward to school starting but at the same time I feel so scared haha cant predict anything that's going to happen so I feel very insecure >.< bobian also uh... Have this sense of insecurity when I think about making new friends cause i'm just so shy yet I'll like to meet more friends cause I too anti-social le LOLOL! If only miracle happen and I got into NP where all my friends are.. T.T

Well, back to topic~ today is the first I work without my fellow colleagues! cause most of them have resigned due to school semester starting soon and only I converted to part time to continue work. How sad... But no choice also, money is too important to me now. I need money for a lot of things. [ Clothes, accessories, FOOD ] LOLOL the one in caps is the most important one haha! Anyway, I hope i'll get into floorball for my cca in poly! Anticipating~~~ And also my orientation camp is coming soon! next week I think. So excited and nervous and scared.. Complicated feelings siol LOL

Next, just to be random, XIAXUE'S BABY IS SO DAMN HANDSOME AND CUTE LA HOLY! hahaha, he have got pretty eyes! What a blessed to have pretty mommy and handsome angmoh daddy!

Feel so high now LOL went to have supper at macs with my in charge, Joyce and also colleague, Yen just now! Had fun chatting with them! Drank mocha chips frappe also and yesh, that's the reason why i'm not sleeping now. Fyi, i'm pretty sensitive to caffeine..

Lastly, a collage of me! LOL not very nice but just let me zi lian for one time okay LOL

Dance

Listening to Caffeine by Yoseob again~ hahaha need to listen to it at least ten times per day LOLOL i'm crazy haha Anyway, i went for dance today! Feels good to dance again. Seeing the juniors practicing for syf reminds me of my syf, how hard we work for it. It's comforting to see them working hard too. Soooo i went back and help out but i was late haha i reach at 9 plus when the training starts at 8 haha i'm sorry LOL couldnt wake up la haha. Had breakfast with poh at 883~ bought cheapcheap bubbletea for $1! and it's quite nice. After breakfast, we went back to help out lo. Saw Mrs Chong also! hahaha but Zu you never come so sad T.T then i went home with poh at around 2! Saw Ivy on the bus! it's the first time i see ivy with her short hair and she dyed her hair! Very pretty kekeke!

Going teo heng tmrw with my girls and idk who else to sing k! hahaha! Looking forward to it! It's been ages sia since i last sang. I always think that my singing is not bad LOL but as time passes... hais.. i realise the truth LOLOL holyy my singing sucks.. whatever la, i go enjoy myself one idc if the pitch is right or not i just sing hiakhiak. pity those who's listening to my singing sorryyy hahaha.

Okayy, shall stop here today! Will update again tmrw to talk about my singing! LOLOL maybe got improvement ley LOLOL byeeeee! ^.^

Merry Christmas!

HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hahaha! Yesterday was christmasssss! And it was the best christmas ever! Hahaha! For once my family went out three times in a day! LOLOL break record sia hahaha! although we dont celebrate christmas hahaa sooo, we went to chong pang to have breakfast yesterday! It's my first time going chong pang in the morning, i normally go at night to have dinner! The hawker centre was so crowded in the morning! Had a hard time finding seats! Cause one table only got four seats and we got five people so we have to get two tables. I ordered prawn noodles! Holyyyy the last time i have prawn noodles was like billion years ago kekeke! it was yummy! haha i'll go and have it again next time haha then we went to the market there walkwalk. then daddy bought bah kwa hahaa idk how to spell la LOL bah kwa is major yums yo hahaha~ and then we went home and played mahjong! LOLOL i lost $7! so sadddd... After two rounds, everybody starts to get hungry LOLOL so we went to 888 plaza for lunch! Had dim sum for lunch yumyum~ haha mummy then suggested to go waterfront walkwalk hahaa so we went there ~ had ice cream over there hahaha it was like a paradise for my nephew sia! cause got plenty of space for him to run haha we saw a cute cat! I am afraid of cats la but that cat was like having a nap in the middle of the path then my nephew was curious so he stood in front of the cat and shouted at the cat LOL then there got alot of people fishing! but all smallsmall fish hahaha! after an hour we went back home and played mahjong again LOLOL i lost $11 -.- so sad maybe i should stop playing mahjong hahaha went to masiling to have dinner! it was also our first time to go out so late to have dinner it was like 830. haha in case you dk, my family usually have dinner at 5 plus hahaha! and we rarely eats lunch haha thats why we had our dinner late cause we went out in the noon to have lunch. After dinner we went home and played mahjong again LOLOL kidding la hahaha crazy! we went home and watched the new 9 pm show! So nice hahaha

Yeap and thats what i did for my christmas! I also received a prezz from my sissy! She bought me a wallet hahaha! Okayyy thats all sayonara!

Life goes on...

UPDATE! Hahaha didnt update my blog for quite a few days haha kind of lazy and busy to blog so.. ya haha! Listening to Caffeine by Yoseob from Beast, AWESOME SONG. Addicted to it since the first time i heard it from tv! Quite addictive haha and yoseob so shuai and cute hiakhiak! 

Soooo, alot of things happen these few days when i didnt blog. Went prawning with Melvin, Rhynade, Weikang and Shannon! Hahaha! It was my first time and it was awesome! Although the price was erm... expensive.. haha i can buy alot more yummy prawns with that same amount of money la! but for the sake of having fun, its worth it ! hahaha! I seriously wanna go prawning again! it's so fun and the feeling i get when i caught prawn is so good! hahaha satisfactory you know hahaha got sense of achievement! Other than that, i feel happy to go out with my sister and brothers! Hahaha! It's our first time going out together and i hope we will have more gatherings next time! it'll be awesome like shit hahaha! Anyway, i went to Hongze's housewarming party after prawning! I had a great time hanging out with them la! BBQ was awesome also and then his parents were so friendly! They even ordered pizza and macs~ haha yumyum! OHYA and we went to the pool and 'i wet my pants' LOL cause i ownself walk into the pool without knowing the depth. hais... 

Last saturday i had my family gathering! Hahaha it's our second family gathering! This whole gathering only started after Grandpa passed away.. If only we visit grandpa often in the past... Yeap, so my relatives decided that we should gather at grandpa's house every three months after grandpa passed away. they figured that we should go accompany him once in awhile. And so we had our family gathering last saturday for the second time! The first time was at a chalet haha~ The BBQ food was awesome! Major yums yo haha i ate alot! kekeke! 

AND lastlast thing! The countdown of the arrival of a new member to my family! Hahaha! 16 more days to the arrival of my baby niece, Jazelyn! Hahaha! Weird name right! My sister says that its nice LOL whatever. I'll just call her Shi En, it's her chinese name! hahaha! I'm so excited ! can't wait to see her! although i waited like nine months LOLOL I'll post her picture when i see her okay! HAHAHA! (:

Lastly, tomorrow is CHRISTMASSSSSS! Sadly, i dont receive any christmas prezzzz haha i rarely receive though. it's okay! I just wanna spend my christmas with my family tomorrow! ^^    
And thats the end of my update today! Super long hahaha~ BYEEEEEEEE~

first day of work

Soooooo, yesterday was my first day of work at hotel.. and i was pretty excited about it haha! BUT, sadly, i was asked to go to a diffeent banquet from poh T.T so damn suay la its like my first time sia then i got assign to one table, with no partners! I dont even know what to do lo, but i have got no choice but to do haishais.Anyway, my first job was the cocktail thingy which i have to serve cocktail to guest la before they enter the banquet hall. At first i thought it was quite fun haha idk why but then i got tired after that and my hand was aching LOL sorry la i weak okay dont judge me please haha after that we start to serve after the guests settle down. the serving part was horrible haha i wasnt even taught how to do portioning. but luckily got two helpful boys help me hahaha i think they think that i am too pathetic lol.then the banquet ended, OHH i broke two bowls anyway hahaha almost shouted vulgar tsktsk and after the banquet ended, we clear everyt up lo and then set up the tables and stuff for the next banquet on friday. I hope i'll be working with poh on friday haha 

SOOOOO, my shoulders are aching like hell this morning haha hope it gets better tmr cause i got work tmr again. hais in conclusion the job is pretty fun but energy consuming and i need to get another job and i'm considering ntuc hahaha i have been wanting to work as cashier so fun hahaha i like to scar barcode LOL 

haha okay so this is my first day of work, horrible but fun though. hahaha sayonara~

Sleepy sunday...

yoyoyo! Could have go out today with my sister in the evening to visit my nephew's 'girlfriend' but i didnt cause i was lazy haha! I miss baby jaseena so badly! Sooooo, i stayed at home with my parents la haha. blahblahblah and we played mahjong in the afternoon! I won $4! hiakhiak! My luck is coming alr, haha have been losing money this few days LOLOL! HUAT AH~! 

Anyway, as you can see from the title of this post, its sleepy sunday haha so i slept till 9 30 this morning and went for breakfast with my family. Then i started watching tv shows after we came back home and then i went for a nap at 1 and slept till 3 LOL then i lie on my bed for like 30 mins until daddy say want play mahjong then i jump up LOLOL life is just so damn boring la haha! 

There is a movie showing now at channel 5 called click. I wanna watch sia but my mummy wanna watch some boring show haishais. so i decided to use computer and update my blog! hahaha and now i am going out to vista point with my daddy! cause we have got nothing to do... haha so i shall stop here today! Sayonara! (:

freedom

yayyyyyyy! Everyone went out and i'm all alone at home today! hiakhiak! Time to execute my evil plan! Which is to use computer all day long and eat and sleep and play! LOLOL what an evil plan huh hahaha! Anyway, finally i get to use computer cause everyone went out hahaha i swear i am super pro alrd, to survive without handphone for so many days! i dont even know where i threw my phone alrd LOL rip yo~ haha! sister bought a new phone anyway .... for herself LOLOL she bought samsung galaxy III haha i also want! I was thinking about convincing my daddy to get one for me when his contracts end hahaha! it shouldnt be expensive bah haha! Shall see first! kekeke~ 

Went cwp with mummy yesterday to buy lunch and shop awhile! miracle sia she bring me go out! she rarely suggest going out to cwp one! Like once a year ? LOL Soooooo, we went out w baby and bought kfc and sushi for lunch cause i have been craving for sushi like freaking long haha And it was likka torture la , to bring baby out by ourselves and we didnt bring the pram out cause we werent going to stay out v.long. So we have to carry him throughout, and let him walk awhile but he is like a mini road hazard lo. hahaha i swear my arms are like breaking! hahaha 

feeling kind of hungry now! I think i am starting to get sick of maggie mee which i thought i will never get sick of it! So sad! now that i think about having maggie mee for breakfast or lunch , i will be damn sian and lazy lo! Maybe its time for me to stop eating maggie mee before all my hair drop! hahaha! so pathetic haha! gonna fry some egg and eat it later for lunch. the thought of maggie mee makes me sick now.lolol >.< 

Yeap~ and thats all for today's update! Nothing much to say since i'm staying home all day long ! Gonna go funshion and watch heartstring! And after i watch finish heartstring i'm gonna watch running man! kekeke good life uh! hahaha! byeeee!

sick~

yo~ Suppose to be outside now in school watching the band concert w my friends! But i couldnt go cause of my stupid stomach! I swear something is wrong w my stomach lol , maybe i'm pregnant HAHA anyway i am so sad la haha like finally can go out w my friends after so freaking long and its at night somemore! well, if you dont know me well, you wouldnt know how strict my parents are haha so its like a miracle if i can go out at night! What an opportunity! But i missed it. tsktsk.

Anyway! Was eating dinner just now and my sister came back with my letters! I am awarded with the EAGLES award and dk what edusave good progress award, i think two awards are the same? idk la. still got what ceremony somemore! haha whatever it is, i am happy to be awarded yo! kekeke! Although i think alot of us got awarded though so its not some special awards or what but i'm still happy and contented! Hahaha! 

Okay short update today! i can only use com for awhile. must use my time wisely! gonna watch heartstrings now! hahaha! recommend you guys go watch! its nice! My third time watching it alr! Should be fourth though haha cause i am watching it on youtube and on tv hahaha! thats all for today bye!

stay home tuesday...

Today is stay home tuesday! Actually everyday also stay at home la lolol. Listening to 火柴天堂 now , it's a nice song! Time now is 2PM, hahaha makes me think of nichkhun LOL. Okay random. >.< 
Anyway, using com now cause i have got nothing to do and wants to check my email to see if there is slots for work anot. Staying at home everyday is so damn boring! OHHH i was watching star king just now! They were teaching the correct posture to walk when girls are wearing heels! So amazing! And few of them tried and then they became slimmer! So cool right! Hahaha! I want try also hiakhiak! they also got idk what slim down de program then got one guy lost 40kg in 50 days! Holy shit right hahaha! So pro sia! If only i can lost 40kg in 50days LOLOL 
  
Since last night stomach aching alrd, then morning wake up also aching. Didnt have a lot for breakfast so i'm feeling kind of hungry now LOLOL Craving for sushi again though i ate it like few days ago only w jeslyn hahaha! Maybe thats the reason why i am fat LOL forever craving for food one hahaha! But i lazy go out buy also so i'll just make do w some bread in the kitchen hahaha! 

Today is alrd dec 4.. looking forward to zoo trip w my friends and also house warming event! Hope the dates dont crash. If it does its so sad! LOL likka finally i have plans then both dates crash so suay hahaha! Lets hope i not so suay okay *prays*

Okayy, done w updating. Hungry now, gonna go kitchen find smth to munch hahaha! byeeeee! ^^  

rain rain go away~

kekeke today is a rainy day~ didnt get to finish my blogpost yesterday LOL end up posting it when the post is halfway done hahaha! I'm now listening to If i ain't got you by Alicia keys! So nice omg hahaha! Anyway, i had plans today but cancel alrd cause of the super not friendly weather! Hais! Wanted to sing k so badly sia! nvm, i can wait hahaha!

Couldn't sleep last night so end up playing with those kuku games in my mummy's phone LOL quite fun though hahaha! previously when i have a phone, i used to watch videos till midnight before i sleep de, now that my phone go heaven alrd, i sleep tat 10++ everynight. LOLOL I'm a pig i know hahaha! I wonder who reads my blog hahaha! Whoever reading this, thankyou! LOLOL

Played mahjong yesterday w my family and i lost $26 ! Shocking uh? LOL i've never lost so much money before sia so suay! Hais i'm broke hahaha! Anyway,i'm thinking about getting another job w flexible timings! Cause it's not confirm that i'll get slots everyday for my current job so i can get another job. Desperate right! i know hahaha, but i need to save money asap to get a new phone and buy myself a laptop. so troublesome when you have no money hahaha!

Okay i'm pretty much done w my posting! Hahaha byebye!

Hello! Finally get to use com for awhile! life's pretty sad without handphone and laptop. pathetic huh? Have been thinking about when i can get a new phone but i guess i have to wait v. long haha. mummy asked me yesterday about my phone and she said that she can buy me a new phone at seven-eleven which cost like 60 bucks or a second hand phone which cost 32 bucks. Of course i dont want la, i know her well yo. If she buys me one of those kuku phones she would never buy me another new phone lo, although she said tht this is a spare phone. tsktsk, so upset w myself. WHY EVERYTHING ALSO NEED MONEY ??? SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY!! AND WHY I NO MONEY ?!?!

Anyway, i told her about the iphone 5 which my friend could sell me but she said that it was too expensive. Well, everything above $50 is considered expensive for her.

first blog post after so long

Created a new blog! Couldnt think of any good url so decided on longlost--love haha random i know ~ Suddenly feel the urge to blog so created a new blog! I'm so happy with myself. Lazyy to change my blogskin though haha shall change it another time! Anyway, went cwp with Jeslyn today to buy shoes and working pants for work! Though i'll be working this coming tues but i end up booking the slots too slow so the slots were full haha!  Pretty excited about working though i know its gonna be tiring haha! Currently listening to beyonce's listen. Amazing song ! Makes me feel emotional whenever i listen to it. 

Have been slacking since O's ended, kind of missed those school days now. Now that i think of it, waking up at 5 everyday and going to school doesnt seem to be a bad idea. i mean that i dont mind waking up early and go school to spend my day w my classmates and my friends. its better than staying at home everyday and rotting. I miss my classmates so much! I miss all the nonsense we share together in class! Life is so boring w/ nothing to do everyday. laying on the sofa watching shows all day long sounds good but when you really do it, its super duper boring la! 

Okay, i'm pretty much done with my updating! Hahaha maybe later i nothing do i will blog again hahaha! Bye! (: